Snow

Its snowing..supposedly till 8am...love it.  Just not the feeling of whem the snow melts....its freezing

scary movies

I am easily scared and so is my friend, that's a fact. So it's funny to some that we are big horror movie fans. Buying our tickets for "Paranormal Activity 3" online so all we need to so is get inline. Other (mean) friends are already joking as to how we'll be in the movie.

I watched "Grave Encounters" on Sunday, I was expecting something scary instead I found myself annoyed and asking "What Would Dean Do" (WWDD)as they kinda all died in the hospital. Thinking the movie belonged as a SciFi original movie, than released for theaters.

Nothing much happening.

Fast cars and assholes

I drive an awesome camaro, ill be the first to announce it over the intercom.  But, it does suck on the attention it recieves from other drivers.  There's always either that ass who thinks I need to speed, the guy who wants to race and the ones who just rev their engines when near mine.  It gets annoying fast....but then again I should have been prepared.  Sigh

Long weekend

This weekend was rather interesting, I ran into the lower end model twin of my car. Traveled to LC and hung out there watching camaros and angry camaro haters all while wondering...do I have to go back to work?

Forgot

I don't know if this happens to others but it happened to me.  I recently was in a relationship and it ended, I received a text recently and realized I had forgotten about my ex and the relationship....does that make me a bad person or is it just my mind making it easier for me?

Don't be afraid of the dark

I am so dissapointed..it was just so bad...my advice watch the black and white orginal.  Damn u remakes!!

Day of the decepticons

I drive a camaro with desepticon decals..while on the road today a girl in a red camaro decided to take a pic of my car at the stop light.  I looked at her and waved she showed me her decepticon wristband...I smiled and gave her thumbs up.  Then lost her in the traffic...its just good to know its not just me on the darkside.  Waspinator forever..woot

Day

Today went swimming.  I tanned which does suck since I'm already dark and would prefer to be light skinned.  But while at the pool something funny happened there was a sterotype..so in between laps I quiltily watched and listened. 

reboots

They have rebooted Thundercats...and yes I did watch it with this strange feeling of sadness. At least the twins are still there..yay.

Anyway nothing much is happening, watched the show "What Would You Do?" and found myself appalled with the episode on basically drugging the male date and the female abusing the male. It was so wrong.

Day

Was going to see the animated tekken movie released one night only..but freak storm and power outtages kept me in.  I am caught up on true blood and wth sookie is a fairy.....

Day

Surprise today I'm seeing the night showing of cap america.  Spent the day lounging in my room watching law and order.  Then friend called, so off I go I nearly died today....it was freaking scary.  So yeah life altering moment no....just puked guts out instead.  N and mom want me to take preg test.  This sick feeling is familar to them.   Other than that off to see cap n finish true blood. 

Day

Today I hadn't planned on really doing anything but my friend H called.  He and J were going to 5guys and asked if I wanted in.  I agreed and off we went in my camaro...you can sit people in the backseat.  The food was good and our conversations were on hookers and then the cosplayers who entered the store to hooker cosplayers...what?  Afterwards it was to H's house and watching netflix...we came across trick r treat...four stories that weren't scary but dissapointing...then home to see bridezillas....yay. 

Day

Today was fun, me and my brother went to a cookout with some of the camaro5 members.  We talked about our cars and joked how some of us washed our cars on Friday then encountered the rain.  Others had washed their cars that morning. Then the rain came again...I had fun.  Seeing friends again that you never knew you'd ever have simply because of a car.  Its amazing plus I'm not the only one creating a decepticon camaro.

Woot waspinator.

Day 13/14/15

Can't get rid of the nausea feeling. Morning and night just want to puke, haven't so am happy. Anywho today was interesting, originally we were just going to go out and eat then go our separate ways. Only my friend M, decided she was fine with catching a showing of Captain America, so we scrambled to the theater found some seats together and watched. It was AWESOME!!! I am going to watch it again, I do feel guilty since I was under the impression we weren't going and decided last minute since M had somewhere to be later on, I was unable to contact him.

Washed my car since she was a mess after the whole freak rains we've been having and it rained today...sigh. She was clean for awhile now have to wash her all over again.

I spent Wednesday and Thursday watching True Blood season 1-2, I must admit I do find it to be interesting, I don't care for the main two characters but I do enjoy the side characters, they are hilarious especially Eric, Sam and Jason. they are my favorites so far. I'll see season 3 soon, and know supernatural has tainted me, while I'm watching True Blood I keep thinking what would Dean do, and then agree with my friend N, there is something there between Dean and Cass. It's there...she didn't believe it and I never brought it up till after she watched all 6 seasons. but it's there, and something has to be done with it..argh.

Day 12/13

I was away from my phone today. Just decided to spend my day w my brother when around 1:30is am I decide to check my calls.  "He who shall not be named" texted me.  Its to late to text back or seek advice so I'm left with the omg what do I do.  I'll seek counsel on this but am unsure how to respond correctly.  I wish to maintain my friendship so this is crucial..and I can't ignore it. 

So how do I respond back w/o sounding angry/bitter/uncaring/desperate ...etc the need to puke has returned.  What do I do?

Also....those break up songs on the radio suck...I love u gloria gaynor u have reminded me that I can and will make it tomorrow ill feel like crap getting there n on ocassion look it but this is not the end.  There is a tomorrow its just taking its sweet ass time getting here. 

Day 12

today was a laid back day after gym, added more exercises. woot. So this was something kol, I was watching HK season 8, and at episode 2 I wondered how awesome it would be to see Ramsey on Iron Chief. Not much just relaxing.

Day 9,10.11

Alright it's Day 11, I missed day 9 and 10. I saw the newest Harry Potter movie and was actually quite happy about it. I enjoyed the whole Snape scene, he has been my favorite character. Going to the gym is great, it makes me feel better and it's beneficial. Yay!

I've been doing better, which is good, thank god for friends. I've been hanging out with them and speaking to them on the phone, it helps keeps me sane. The more I talk to them the more freely they talk about "he who wont be named" and the more realizations they share with me. Why they didn't tell me this before is a surprise to me, but now it makes me wonder what else I was blind too..man.

I need to wash my car but am terrified to, because of the tinting. once Wednesday rolls around she'll get a wash and all the TLC I've been denying her in fear of the tinting. I did get my nails done Saturday, yellow and black like my car. I love the nail girl, she's better than a shrink. then had my eyebrows waxed, when you've had metal in your legs to keep your bones together pain feels different, I was barely fazed by the waxing, the lady was impressed, she was nice, quiet but alright. Now to decide if I'm going to get that blond chuck dyed in my hair...no idea yet. Still so excited for my friends wedding, he called me today to see how I was doing. Told him better I'm not crying still feeling nauseous but hopefully that will pass.

I hate this feeling of needing to throw up, I'm not really eating anymore, just when I'm with someone, other than that, I'm not hungry all. this sucks, 11 years and I have no idea what the hell just happened. sigh...

But i think after this school year I'm going to start applying to different jobs some outta state, I want to travel, do things for me and not feel so freaked out that anywhere I go I might run into "he who shall not be named"

But i have deadlines and a portfolio to redo, and thank god a supportive family and group of friends who will simply put up with me.

taking it day by day and realizing Gloria Gaynor "I will survive" is good advice.

Day 8

I've gotten into a routine which is great. Wake up and go to the gym come home n hangout w brother or friends.  I had forgotten about haven but aparently the second season is up.  Yesturday was fun..hung out w my friend watched myst3000/rifftraxs and talked.  She is in love with car lol.  I do need to wash my car..the rain came and now she needs a wash.  But at least tomorrow she's getting tinted.  Yay.

Still miss him.  But at least I'm not crying spent the first 2 days doing that.  It wasn't the nice crying but the loud snot soon the tears are gone and your just trying to breath. 

Day 7

It is another day.  Went to proff development it was life drawing, have a new idea on how to teach the subject w the kids.  My legs hurt...gym is fun. Working out is a great way to relieve stress.  I played heavy rain yesturday, argh...but my friend now understands the whole car appreciation thing.  Woot camaro.

I miss him.

Day 6

Okay. Been working out, hanging out with friends and keeping myself busy.  That should be good, right?

Been taking it day by day...found myself watching transformers prime before bed, stu.bled on it during channel surfing..its alright gotta say I'm liking Knock-Out. 

Day 5

Feels better than day 1 and 2. I cried those two days, so far I haven't.  I feel like i lost my best friend and the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.  Just take it day by day and know it gets easier...I hope.  On an un related note, it seems in the magazines mustangs cheat when their compared to the other cars (camaro,challenger) its always suped up in comparison to the stock models its against.  Go figure.   

What am I supposed to do aside from workout and hangout with friends and keep myself busy and work on myself.  At least I ate today...I couldn't keep anything down the first couple of days.   Day by day.

Day 4 part 2

I'm hoping its normal to feel sick to the stomach...this is going to be difficult.

Day 4

This is the fourth day of the break. I slept last night so that was a plus, took awhile to finally go to sleep. Thankfully I now have projects to work on, the more free time I have the more time I have to think, which is not good. Projects are good. It get easier, and I'm waiting for that part.

Day 3

I slept tonight. Very happy about that, everyone keeps telling me the same thing and I am going to listen to it. I will take this day by day, I will keep myself busy and I will work on me, do things for myself. Today have meeting, so there is something to keep me busy. Gotta keep self busy.

Day 2 part 2

Word spread like wildfire. Thankgod for friends.  Hanging out with friends all day.  Yay. 

Day2

Didn't sleep. Drank a lot of shirley temples..they were bad lots of ice. Friends are great don't know what to do.......just gotts take it day by day and focus on self.  Yay me.

Taking a break

As of today the relationship I have been in since I was 14 is over.  11 year relationship is over.  And it hurts.

Happy moms day

Today is moms day. Didn't lose my job thankfully, stresssed out a lot but now I think the stress of spending mothers day in a hospital knowing their keeping my mom overnight is worse.  May god answer prayers n my mom be fine.

Day 2 first drive on a criuse just to friends house.

Car

Can't believe it but I have a new car and a convertable at that . Woot!!!  Today she is officially mine I defected from dodge to my camaro..niaomi is her name.  Awesomeness!!!

Testing and TAKS

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It's that time of year again. Students preparing to take that exam to see if they have been paying attention in class or not.  Some have and some haven't, time to see if some familiar names are on the summer school list.

What's funny is that I'm a monitor so I get to see different testing groups and how they behave, yay me. I know that some students/children want attention, give into peer pressure and act a whole lot different than at home with their parents. So far certain things stood out.

The first was a student who was going all out on his oral skills, pretending he was giving head with his mouth, wrist and head action...that was kinda freaky especially since he was doing it facing another rather uncomfortable student, brought that up to the counselor.

The second a student who was told to wait for the restroom since the teacher had been summoned to the command post for something, the student was told several times to wait, then he decided he wouldn't and stood up and screamed he had to go now!! So after informing command post he was allowed to go, all he did, drink water and smirk the whole way back.

Third, I tell the students, adults, etc that how they choose to live their life is up to them, all I ask of for them is to show the same consideration as everyone else. I know that acting gay is in with the students now, but being is like sooo wrong..I don't get it. One student decided to put on lipstick and mascara (a guy), then him and another student decided to get all hot and bothered with each other , the command center was informed, what comes out of that who knows.(had to call a time out on them, they said it was cause they were black...what?

other than some students who should never ever be in the same room together, it was a normal testing day.

P.S: Are car magazines biased towards the mustang? In the ones I've read the mustang is suped and modded out, while the others are the mid or stock model. Somethings not right, I sense Ford holding a blackmail over peoples head or bribery.

It ain't about the children

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When people say it's for the children. I believe they just say that so anyone that questions them looks the villain. I'm beginning to believe that more and more as time goes on. The new administration in the building "the boss" as it calls itself, claims that left and right. It's for the kids, but I'm doubting that. I spent half a year cleaning and fixing a trophy case(the school can redo the principals and vice principal office but god forbid the rest of the school, I wish we had a heater and air conditioner, and a ceiling that didn't leak and when a bad storm hits caves in.) so my students can display all their work from the painting, sketches and sculptures. when boom, I'm told to give it up so a place for the teacher of the year and month can be displayed. leaving my kids with no where to show their work. It really pisses me off, also to it a student who throws a rock and hits a teacher on the head isn't to blame, cause he didn't know better. (bull)

Today it decided that referrals were something it could dismiss and those who send referrals do so to remove a student from their class, because they lack discipline...wow.

I was watching the news yesterday and something, it was a video done by a girl about being bullied that made me tear up. I had a student we'll call him "M" he was mentally handicapped but damn he was awesome, he was so full of life, happy all the time, saw nothing but the positive and wanted to learn everything. He was a kid you'd fall in love with(not in the sick way). Only some students are cruel, they picked on him, I held them for detention called parents, the administration and nothing. Instead of the students who bullied him being held responsible, all the blame was put on "M". because he was treated different, his modifications demanded I did, but that didn't matter. "M" died three months after being pulled from my class, he went for surgery and never woke up. I went to his funeral and it hurt, he was so still, his teachers and friends showed up but no administration or anyone else, the next day the bully students laughed that the retard was dead..but aside from me some other teachers and his friends no one else gave a damn. It makes me wonder, what the hell goes on with administration, a child who took everything with a smile, who didn't understand why people were so mean, even his mother spoke to administration his teachers banding behind her with documentation, but nothing just blame on him. I don't think education is about the students benefit for the future and providing a foundation for any field they choose, exists here.

It doesn't matter that students interrupt class and aren't held responsible that classes are held for the parents to help with learning English. parenting classes help from the school and no one shows claiming inconvenience and it might interrupt with their welfare(some of my students are 3rd generation). Education is about money, it aint about the children.

Can u read me

Testing testing can u read me?

spring break

I was watching "The Big Issue" on cnn and came to some screwed up conclusion. Children aren't the brightest crayons in the box and if the parents even duller, Darwinism save us. An 11 year old was raped, she's being blamed for it. Why, no idea. My dad would say what was she wearing and how was she acting, you gotta take it into consideration. I don't understand it, but it freaks me out, especially since it was filmed on phone cam, I know that with Middle School children sex-ting is just a new way to break the ice between couples or get the attention of the boy you like....

Long Day

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Oh the day I had today.
Two of my cholitos got into a fight, more verbal in the hallway turned the both in especially when one of my student started to threaten violence on him.( as in stabbing violence) Then in class he started talking back to me and cursing in Spanish. waled the princess to the office and then he was suddenly quiet cause his home-boys weren't in the room. I'm hoping that he does receive the citation for disrupting class, that classroom is were the majority of my very special(mental-slow) whom I love and spent as much time with them as I can...there wonderful and so eager to learn. Sadly in January on my students, he was always happy and polite, eager to try and learn everything he could, he had been picked on by other students even the special ed students who simply know how to work the system and will struggle in life under their belief that they are owed by the man, and are perfectly happy to be another generation of welfare producing babies....so wrong.

Any who i know had to attend a boys town training...which suck like mad. I am so wearing jeans and my Godzilla or some other old T's fight the power man. So two weeks ago we had snow days, the power was off and on, snow appeared. so when work started, the heater,unsurprising still didn't and part of my room flooded again, like it always does. one day it and the heater/cooler and the collapsing tiles in the ceiling will be fixed...(probably not in my life time.

Tomorrow is career day, woot!!! now to see if the professional who speak to the students will not be weird out by the title one, every knows us for the students we receive..yipee...sigh.

lets see how tomorrow goes.

oh children...

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Children, children, children such sweet things.
There are several different types of children, good, bad, in between and those who will end up on "1000 to ways to die/darwin awards". I'm sure nearly all has an example or two of all. I would like to share my humorous picks of the day.

1.) student who was told to remove the hood part of his hoodie decided to threaten me with telling the principal I was not teaching him and asking him (my words) lewd comments. sounded better that way...

2.) I will admit I was slightly impressed with this one. One student found an answer key to the science final exam and sold answer sheets to other students. He was caught by me and another teacher, also one of his buyers went to the principal for being cheated out of their money, turns out it was the wrong test. LOL!!

3.) Student who I am constantly on for doing work tells his mother we do nothing in class and all I do is sit behind my desk watching the computer screen. I wish, all the grading I could do!! Can't wait for that parent conference, but here's the funny part the mom told him he could be removed from my class, he said no, he likes art.

Don't get me wrong I do love my job, and thankfully am good enough to still work in the industry, yay freelancing!!! But like everyone else, there are days when I hate and love my job, and the people it entails.

Now to building portfolio for blizzard, someone has to draw the pretty picture.

GRE: closer.....cramming
Weight: ....don't wanna talk about it.
Saving for: http://www.wacom.com/cintiq/cintiq-21ux.php

jesus camp and bracelets

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Monday, the day of the week when it's really hard to get out of bed even after hitting the snooze button 3 times. I saw a rather scary documentary, it's titled "Jesus Camp" it's basically about brainwashing. You just gotta see it to understand, speaking of brainwashing, did you know that there are generations on welfare, not second or third but fourth and more?

A student informed me of this, they are the fourth generation welfare and plan on staying that way since the "Man" owes them..-_-; fact is if that kid can tell you the road map to welfare it gets to me since my money pays for it, but if you ever get the chance to go into a HUD house/apartment. It'll make you feel an anger that you can't imagine.

I'm hoping with fingers crossed that the adobe suite CS and wacom/bamboo tablets will be approved, I have students who are interested in the digital aspects of art and thankfully I know them. but it would be great if I can introduce it to students who haven't a clue.

What's the best way to gain approval from administrations?
All for now.


GRE: still cramming
weight:0_0, goal: 135

childhood disapointment

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Dodge Challenger RT Classic Furious Fuchsia, ever since I received the challenger pink panther w/ the white top match car I wanted to own that car. Unfortunately that color and model is no longer available so the furious fuchsia was the closest that I could achieve. One became available, a brand new one automatic special model, being different from the other challengers outside and in. I went to see it and found out it was in the shop, the brand new never owned challenger was in the shop. Being taken apart because there was something with the transmission.

I was saddened, I had been prepared to buy the challenger and put a thousand dollar down payment, needless to say I didn't purchase it. Other than that still saving for some more semesters for college and about the take the GRE test in February, I do know now not to take it lightly. Last time I took it, thinking it was as easy as the SAT, I bombed it very badly, to make matters worse it was timed...I did not know that. But I do know, yay for me knowledge is power.

other than that nothing much, till next time..and hopefully I remember that I decided to update regularly(daily) and go to gym..weight is not good...but everything else is healthy. which is weird I have a clean bill of health except for weight...strange indeed.

winter vacation is over

Sadness has arrived the winter break is over. Why school starts again on a Wednesday I have no idea. But happy new year and holidays that have past. I have decided that since I have a blog and wiki why not use them.

Happening: studying for GRE test, saved up money for college semesters.

sadness..I've been saving forever to buy a challenger, was prepared to buy it till I found out the "new" rt classic furious fuchsia had to be taken into the shop and taken apart, because a part was bad. was upset, but life goes on.

nothing much happened today.